saat hujan menitikkan rintis dan

kita berdua menggigil kedinginan

kamu mengeluarkan jaketmu dan aku berkata

"biasanya cowok ngasih jaketnya ke cewek, ini malah dipake sendiri. huh"

dan kita berdua tertawa.

aku berkata aku haus

dan kamu bertanya

"apa minumnya sudah dipesan?"

tanpa menawarkan minum milikmu

kamu memilih tempat duduk

tanpa mempersilahkan aku duduk terlebih dahulu 

 kamu itu tidak romantis. tidak sama sekali

tapi aku......suka   

Bukan Perjalanan Romansa

hari ini 
bukan perjalanan romansa
karena kami berdua tanpa rasa 
tapi apakah hanya aku yang bertanya-tanya? 

apa semesta ingin aku bertemu dengannya? 
saat pelangi sore membayang di lembayung senja 
dan aku sedang duduk bersamanya 
seolah semesta berkata 
"kalian harus bersama" 

apakah hanya aku 
yang merasa hangat saat  menatapnya? 
yang tidak pernah bosan mendengar suaranya ketika bicara?
apakah hanya aku? 

ketika itu
aku ingin meraih jaketnya
dan berkata jangan pergi 

ketika itu, 
aku ingin menangis dan berkata 
"sebentar lagi perjalanan ini berakhir"

sekali saja, 
aku ingin mengatakannya padamu 
"aku ingin perjalanan yang lebih lama bersamamu" 

tapi aku tidak bisa 
karena yang kutau
kamu masih tanpa rasa  

ps:  aku ini lebih penakut daripada kamu 

Have you ever googled your name??

this is the question i dare to ask to someone in my class. he's from faculty of medicine, UI. 
don't know what to say, but it pissed me off. but since i cant ask him straightforward, i will share it here. 

if you google his name, you'll find dozen articles about him. yeah, of course, he's won second place on OSN biology. not surprise hm? but the point is, how could you.....show nothing like those articles said? i mean, he's calm, quiet, or too quiet in my word. and his facebook too. its almost empty. yeah, i stalked him. but nothing to show. that's ridiculous. you're the star, but why?  

ah. if only i have more time to talk to you. if only you're not from faculty of medicine. if only. 
just...lets be friend okay? lets be friend for a looooooong time :) 

My Name on Urban Dict

dari hasil iseng nge-googling ternyata nemu arti nama gue dari urban dictionary. nih gue share yaaa 

Zahra

n. A female who is deliciously sexy; Erotically and arousingly attractive. One who is able to make men burn with desire. Damn that chick is hot, she's like a Zahra  in short, another way to say AWESOME, or the source word for the adjective awesome. I wish I was like her, she's awesome. she is ZAHRA  Zahra's tend to be the flirtatious type, and will know what she wants. If she wants something, she will do ANYTHING to get it. She has dreams, hopes, and fantasy's, and will often believe that anything is possible. Zahra's are very sweet, kind hearted, and know how to have fun. She is someone that you can tell anything to, and will open her heart to anyone as long as you do the same. Although, if you mess around with her to much, and hurt her, she will most likley build a wall between you and her, and she can be bitchy and dry. DO NOT be bitchy to a Zahra, for she will be bitchy, yet even worse. If you fall in love with a Zahra you are a very lucky person, because once she can trust you with her heart, and you give her yours, she will create a paradise, and put lots of work into making you happy. Not only will she make your heart melt, but Zahra's tend to be very sexual, and can pleasure you in many ways. Zahra's are overall fun-loving, sexy, seductive, smart, optomistic, hopeful, and over all beautiful. If you get a Zahra, never let go of her, because you will never find somone like her. She is such an amazing girl, she must be a Zahra Her name is the definition of Love If you find a Zahra, never let her go. She is extremely forgiving. She can sometimes be gullible. When she is sad she tends to stare off into places. She tends to avoid eye-contact with the boy or man she likes out of shyness. She will think about them all day but will never make the first move. She is attracted to men that are hard to get. She is beautiful, everyone knows she is beautiful, except for her. She will do anything to make someone happy. She will sexually satisfy you beyond your limits. If she goes quiet near the man she likes she will become tongue-tied. After she is more than 5 meters away she will laugh or say something to her friend and moan. When she walks people say in hushed tones she's pretty, or she's fit. They usually have uglier siblings. She may or may not be the most popular person but Zahras get along with everybody. She acts like a person off a TV programme, with many casual facial expressions and witty talk, by nature. This is one of her charms. She usually has one outstanding facial feature. She will believe anything is possible once she sets her mind to it. If someone she loved had been taking advantage of her loyalness and treated her worse than they should she would always forgive quite quickly. n. an exceedingly interesting and intriguing female who is probably also a doctor She's always reading an obscure book or taking up a new hobby. She's such a Zahra. adj. Used to describe the ABSOLUTE best kind of female. They are the all-rounders who don't really know how great they are. Chances are, they don't appreciate themselves much. Very rare to find, Zahra comprises of women or girls who are simple minded, very down to earth, innocent, high family values, morals and ethics, extremely caring about not only the people they know but also someone they just met, as long as the person is nice to her. They follow the saying "be yourself" by heart no matter what people say. Zahra girls can be very emotional and sweet and are the perfect kind of girls anyone would be lucky to have. As they grow older, they might hide their emotions from people to try acting like a grown up and be strong, but inside they'll always be that same person since childhood. They are also very hard working and smart. Zahras aren't superhuman but when they put their mind to anything, they get the job done. Last but not the least, Zahras aren't just about the angelic personality, but they're also incredibly beautiful naturally and they'll prove that everyday as soon as they wake up from bed, without any sort of makeup. Regardless of her conservative nature, if she trusts her companion enough, she'll always make sure he is intimately satisfied as well. I'll be lucky if I get to marry a Zahra. A sexy girl who loves bbd and is constantly listening to dirty lyrics in songs. Occasionally she uses these lyrics for her own sexual songs. Omg u are so a zahra! nah gimana? gak nyangka kan nama gue punya arti secakep itu? huehehehe XD  thanks for mom and dad who gave me this blessed  name

this is cozy~

waktu nulis ini gue lagi muter-muter nyari tempat pe-we buat duduk dan internetan #AkuCintaGratisan

beberapa waku belakangan ini gedung gue kuliah pindah ke gedung baru. gedung baru yang katanya World Class University empat lantai tanpa lift kursinya kaya kursi kondangan yang kalo jam delapan belom dibuka kelasnya #gubrak! 

anyhow,yang gue cinta dari gedung ini adalah HOTSPOTnya eureka!! 

cepet pet pet peeet. 

download film 700MB cuma dalam 15 menit kurang. running man bisa gue download sampe tiga episode dalam dua jam. uehehehe gue demen banget. 

tapi yang sangat disayangkan disini adalah gak ada spot yang cakep buat duduk manis nikmatin gratisan itu. nyebelin banget!! karena masih gedung baru lantainya juga masih kotor dan furniture nya belom ada kaya kursi-kursi di lorong tempat kita bisa duduk-duduk. colokan juga masih termasuk sedikit.

sekalinya ada tempat cozy itu di fakultas tetangga namanya taman bugen. itu ya, asal lo tau, surga dunia bagi mahasiswa!! tempatnya cozy, bersih, angin sepoi-sepoi, deket kantin, terang, hotspotnya dewa, beuuuhhh dua hari dua malem mau kali gue disana. sayangnya gak bisa buka facebook disana :( 

secara pengiriman berkas-berkas gue selalu via fb jadi itu krusial banget. sedih juga kalo gabisa buka fb huhuu T^T 

kalo di gedung yang lama, jauh dari gedung baru. hotspot cuma kenceng di beberapa titik doang, kursi-kursi terbatas, dan aaaaarrrggghhhh......udah gamau balik lagi ke gedung lama muehehehe 

yaaah gue tau emang gak ada yang sempurna di dunia ini. tapi paling gak, boleh lah ya ngarepin sesuatu yang mendekati sempurna demi kelancaran kuliah